Fine in 09

So I’m finally embarking on my New Year’s resolution to be “Fine in 09”. I decided last week that I would make up in my mind to start working out and eating better. Last night, I made that step and attended a kickboxing class with one of my new friends. She like me cares about her appearance in every way so for me that’s very encouraging for what I’m trying to get back to in my life.

I was talking to a dear friend and photographer who I hung with heavily during my period of modeling. I mentioned to him that I was thinking about making a come back. Needless to say he just laughed. Of course I was offended and I asked, “You don’t think I can make a come back?" His reply, “The question is not can you make a come back, it’s will you?” So for me that was a challenge.

The following day I decided to read my horoscope, which isn’t a normal part of my day. I think I did it because someone around me just so happened to mention hers so I decided to see what mind would say. After reading the paragraph, that was it. I knew what I needed to do and it was time.

It said something like this: Contrary to what you think of yourself, you are a very special and unique person and there is no one else like you. *I agreed with that.* Then it went on to say….Go ahead and do that thing that your friend said that you wouldn’t do. Take this time to prove them wrong.

All I could say was WOW….I have to do it. So I started it last night with kickboxing class and here I am a day later sore and can’t even walk UP the stairs. Its okay, after a night of soaking in Epsom salt, I’ll be ready to go tomorrow.

Jassy B.

Non-Maternal Moment

Being a mother is such a wonderful thing!!!! Everything you do is centered on this one way of life. No matter, what you do, what you say or how you feel, you will always and forever are a mother. With that in mind, I was having what I thought was a non maternal moment, yes a moment where I thought for the next 2 hours I am not a mother. Not because I dislike being a mother but because I just don’t have the times like I had last Thursday night. Me and a few of my fellow co-workers decided we would head out for a night on the town at a local bar that is known to be quite the place to hang out on Thursday nights. I was just saying how good the drink special of the night, the $5 margarita was on point and how I was about to indulge in a second drink when my phone begins to vibrate my hind parts. While, I could have had my phone in my purse, I had it in my back pocket because in the back of my mind I was having maternal thoughts and I also knew that my children were only a phone call away in my hind pocket. At first, I thought it was my imagination that I felt the vibration but then I felt it again. Lo and behold the caller id says, “Hubby”. Now if I’m out with the girls my husband is very good about not calling me unless there is what he calls an emergency. In this case, it was. In a loud bar of music, I can only hear blah, blah, blah, wah, wah, as I say HUH, I CAN’T HEAR YOU, WAIT A MINUTE, LET ME WALK OUT!!!!!!

So this is the conversation when I get outside to hear:

Me: “Ok, what’s up?” My thoughts, “This better be good.”
Hubby: “Can you stop by the store and get some tape on the way home?
Me: “We have tape. Didn’t you just tell me the other day there was some packing tape there? Can’t that work?”
Hubby: “No, not for this.” Avoiding right out telling me what’s going on.
Me: “Well, what do you need the tape for?
Hubby: “For our eldest child.”
Me: “Okay, what is she doing that she needs tape?”
Hubby: “It’s not what she’s doing; it’s what she’s done.”
Me: “Ok, again what is it.”
Hubby: “Well, she had a little accident. She was running in the house, when I told her to stop and then she comes in the kitchen, not saying a word only to lift her foot up and there is blood and no toenail.”

So there went my night out with the girls without husbands or children. Needless to say I had that second drink because he seemed to have everything under control and I didn’t know when this non-maternal moment would come again. It really didn’t do any good because in the back of my mind all I could do was think of my baby and her toe, so I had to leave and get that tape. LOL…..

Gotta love husbands and children!

Jassy B.

JBL's Epiphany

My Fellow Blogger/Readers,

I know that it's been a while but sometimes some of my best posts are those where I've been away for awhile and had some experiences to write on.

So recently, well a month a go, I had an epiphany about my life. Yes, a great manifestation not just about my life but the life of all mankind. I realized that going through a rough time in life didn't have to be as rough as I had allowed it to be. I began to think of people who take their entire lives and prepare for major storms that they know may possibly come their way. They build storm shelters that can turn into a living quarter for a temporary amount of time. They buy first aid kits and storm radios and enough food and water to feed the multitude. Others may think that these people go beyond the call of duty for being prepared and are crazy for getting all of these things in order for a major disaster and they think things won't ever get too bad for someone to create an entire house underground for them to live in if something happens. They prepare and they are ready. . . well about as ready as they can be.

Then you have those who will have a pantry full of food, water, a storm radio and will have and do just enough to get by if something does happen.

Then you have those who really don't believe that anything is going to happen to them and they are in no way, form or fashion prepared for the disaster that is about to take place in their lives.

Well guess what, for the past year of my life, I have been that person that believes nothing was going to happen to them and I was never prepared for what was about to come. If one could even think of their lives as the weather, you never know what the forecast is going to be for the day, week, month or the year. Anything can change from one minute to the next. While we have meteorologist who are supposed to keep us up to date with changes, they many times report what they "think" is going to happen but they may not necessarily be sure. My life recently has been full of storms that I was NOT prepared for.

**Side note-I think the current economic situation can be an example of a major disaster for all struggling Americans.**

While I may not know what major or minor storm is going to come my way, I do know that I can be prepared for it. God has he equipped us with resources to be prepared for things and I'm definitely using them next time. I'm going to take a new approach and make a better life for myself and those around me. As for now, I hope that my forecast is clear until I get past my first phase of preparation.

Jassy B.L.

January 26th Morning Devotion

As I began my day this morning I started off by reading Psalm 103, focusing on the highlighted scriptures below. I know this seems to be all over the place in one chapter but these are the things that I felt applied to my life and the things that I’m personally dealing with in continuing to develop my relationship with God. I felt the need to share this morning that regardless of what’s going on in our lives remember to continue to praise God no matter what’s going on in your lives. Always remember the benefits of being a Child of God and remind the devil of them on a daily basis!!!!

While listening to my online Praise and Worship I heard a song that Byron Cage sings “Thou Art A Shield For Me” This really touched me because I’ve been going through so much lately and I desperately needed to be reminded that regardless of what’s going on in my life I have a shield and protection from whatever the devil may try to bring up against me. I also was very moved because lately I’ve felt like I’ve been walking and dealing with things with my head down and my eyes looking toward the ground instead of looking up and being focused on God. During the vamp of the song they continued to say, Thank you for lifting my head.

So I say to you, Thank God for lifting your head from anything that may be distracting you from looking towards the hill from where you help, healing, deliverance, strength, and blessings come from.

Psalm 103

1Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. 2Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: 3Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; 4Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; 5Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's. 8The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. 10He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. 11For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

Thou Art A Shield For Me From the album "Byron Cage"

Lord how are they increased that trouble me

Many are they that rise up against

there be that say of my soul

There is no help for him in God.

But thou oh Lord are a shield for me

My glory, you lift my head

But thou oh Lord are a shield for me

You're my glory, the lifter up of my head.

I cried to the Lord with my voice,

And he heard me out of his Holy hill.

I laid me down... and I slept

I wait for the Lord to save me.

I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people

That set themselves against me round about

Thank you for lifting my head

Thank you for lifting my head

Thank you for lifting my head